Staying Positive

Today was a good day. Woke up with a very upset stomach but did what I had too and kept a positive attitude. Made my coffee and snuggled with my hubby, while waiting For My friend and her son to come. Then we sat around and talked for a lil bit while waiting for my sister In law to let us know she was ready. We were taking all our kids to walk on the Walkway on the Hudson. It was soooo beautiful up there today but cold as all getout!! The kids ran and ran and we all talked our girl talk and enjoy the scenery. We went about a lil over halfway and then headed back to our cars. Then me and My Friend and out two kids headed to Vassar College for our Picnic by the pond. We ate our yummy PB&J sammies and watched the kids skip rocks and .. well just be kids. Then we drove over to another part of the college and parked her car and walked over to the art exhibit. I was very pleasently surprised to find how Intrigued and really Into the art our kids were!! They were fascinated and totally Into trying to figure out what the paintings were and what they thought of them from there perspective. Our day ended with my friend driving us home and now me..sitting here thinking. My brain goes back to the reality of our life right now and the horror of the truths as they are coming to light. I wish I didnt have to think bout all this , but If I dont we will yet again be blindsided by the outcomes. The straight truth Is If we dont get unemploymeny ... we will be homeless. No job I find can make enough money to pay rent ... and we only have a month for My husband to find a sustainable Job which Is highly unlikely. So yeah , we'll be homeless with nowhere to go. I feel like a loser cause we can sell the truck and get rid of a few more things but without any money coming In we STILL cant take care of what we need to. What am I supposed to tell my Daughter. We promised her that wed never go through that again. When she was little we got suddenly evicted from our apt because of a bunch of really Jealous people. We ended up living In a hotel room and It was very very hard on my daughter. I dont want to do that to her again. Not to mention that we have 6 cats that are like our children. Right now all we have are prayers. Lots and Lots of prayers. I pray we can get unemployment. I pray we can get a lil foodstamps and I pray for a job for me that'll make up the difference of what he made and what he'll lose ..... Feeling very lost.